The life of small hands, a big heart and a burning desire to see the world know LOVE in an intimate way... And the adventures and life lessons along the way.

Monday, April 27, 2009

A little update...more like a lil of everything...hope it's not too long...

This is a little update about my life and all that is going on...
Physically: I just have to laugh because the craziest things happen to me, anyways. I am really happy to get my wisdom teeth out in 2 weeks. Sometime around that same week I will also have my gallbladder removed. I am perfectly healthy to organs that just decide to stop working and there is nothing you could do to prevent it.

Mentally: Drained, but well. I have finals this next week and a half and due to other things I am just tired of analyzing every detail of a situation...what happend? I never used to analyze this much! I well, I won't anymore, not near as much starting now!

Emotionally: Full and very expressive, at least when I don't hold it back. I am very glad to announce that I am fully feeling and expressing! I am not numb, or suppressing my emotions. I don't have to make them up, or make myself sound like what I should be feeling! YAY! I am exhausted at the end of each day, but hey I gave my all.

Relationally: Well finding who my root friends are and which one are branches and which ones are leaves. Trusting the Lord, for his plan is perfect!

Financially: Daddy is taking care of me! He is providing all I need!!! Thank you Mr. Stoner for reminding me!

The joy of the Lord is my strength. In Him I take refuge. He walks with me through thick and thin. He never stops teaching me. He dances with me! I am amazed at his glorious splendor! He is Lord of all. He created you and me and loved us before the world ever began. He is glorious! Worthy of all our praises! His peace endures. He is faithful! These statments ring true again and again. :D I am weak, but He is strong. In Him we are holy and righteous! It's about time we start living like it! No doubts! For we must boast about this, that we know the Father and He knows us and our names are written in the book of life!

In this desert, I have found the greatest friend of all! I have seen a glimpse of this glorious splendor of a savior who died so Father could be glorified. A life that was spent bringing hope and loving the unloveable. Speaking the hard things. Only by the Holy Spirit can we understand what He meant when He wrote those life giving words in the Book of Life. For freedom we are set free. In this desert, here in the presence of the Lord, I find all that I've been searching, longing, yearning for. I am captivated. I am satisfied.
No this is not an easy season by any means! However, I am loved, cherished, delighted in, blessed, protected and joyful! I have a lot of hard things each and every day to face, but in this desert I see the garden in the distance. I take joy in the Father. I am held in arms that comfort, heal and lead me. I am taken care of. I am completely dependent on a man that I have never seen. I am held in the arms of my Daddy that I have never seen. He whispers to me, here in this desert, and I've never even seen his face. I am healing. He is glorious! He riegns in us!
Everything I have ever searched for in a man, in an earthly relationship I have found in my beloved. I wear a ring that is more true now, in this desert then ever before.
It's all a choice, a simple ask of help from the Creator himself.
In the pain there is healing, In your name there is meaning.
Tears, a sign of healing.
I still seeking after him! For my soul craves for Him!
I have been blessed with the best friends I could ever ask for! They've been there through the good and the bad. They saw me at my weakest, at my worst, at my best and everywhere in between. Yet they are always there, for we share the same Father!
See you all soon!
Love always...

Tuesday, April 14, 2009


So life is just pure chaos, I think I have just about decided! I am doing really well right now. Depending on the Lord, and He is faithful always!
God is my protector, the one in whom I take refuge! I depend on Him for everything!
So some crazy things have happend recently and my mom just called me not too long ago to let me know of some more stuff that is happening. Ugh! Is all I have to say.
God is in control, and I am going to seek him for wisdom and guidance, and protection.
I am so thankful for all of you!!!
May God give you the peace I have come to know and live in in every situation!
Love always...

Thursday, April 9, 2009

So yesterday was an interesting day to say the least. It was a day that went well and that I enjoyed quite a bit.
Some stuff went on today. I gave some things to the Lord today and a challenge came up.
Well when it came up and the first thing that came out was
Dear Jesus,
My heart is broken. Can you fix it?

He has been so faithful and he is my healer in all things.
I'm not completely fixed, but I've got God and he is all I need.

So this post is kind of a healing in the process. Glory be to God for all that he is doing!!!

Love always...

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

He is faithful!
He is good!
In Him I trust!
He is my healer!
He is the one I love!
He is my Daddy!
He is my best friend!
He is my beloved!
He is my strength!
He is EVERYTHING to me!

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Isaiah 12
Ezekial 16
Ezekial 36 & 37
Hosea 6 & 8
Naham 1:7
Matthew 21:28-22:14
Long night
It's over!
Thank you Jesus for your protection!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thats been my life for almost the past 24 hours.
God does protect his children!!!! don't ever doubt that!!!

Love always...

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

I'm rather ill...

So my body has been quite tempermental with me lately. I try and give it enough sleep and it seems that I can never quite match up. I've been having lots of pain in my stomach and lots of other symptoms that I won't mention because I don't want you to worry. Yesterday I spent the whole day getting blood work done and visiting with my doctor. My body has decided to let everything go wrong all at the same time. Well needless to say, I have been given some medicine to take care of a couple of the issues. But as for the pain, perseverence is what I have to do for now. Turns out, majority of my abdomin pain, if it gets worse(another words, if it keeps hurting more and more everyday like it has been for the past two weeks) surgery will be the cure. And right now surgery sounds pretty good considering everything.
God will heal me I know this and I truly believe it, he's done it several other times for me. I just don't know if he is going to use my doctor or not. I'm so glad God helps out the medical field in so many ways. Oh how I miss seeing the Lord work in patients lives and bodies like I did when I worked at the hospital.
Anyways, I'm off to bed, I have a huge migraine and am hurting pretty bad right now, so sleep here I come. Sweet dreams...till next time

He is always faithful, through the worst of times and through the best of times.

Love always...