The life of small hands, a big heart and a burning desire to see the world know LOVE in an intimate way... And the adventures and life lessons along the way.

Friday, January 16, 2009

Through my Daddy's eyes

Step by step
you lead me
down a long and narrow road
you go before me

you take all the blows
you go after me
you take all the stabs
you guide my every breath
you take all the curses
you take all the lies
your leading me to life everlasting
all because you LOVE

You love the dandilions that I bring
You love my broken heart
You love my painful scars
You love my shattered dreams
You love my weakest moments
You love my forgotten memories
You love each flaw I have

Because in YOU

Dandilions turn to roses
Broken hearts are made new
Painful scars are completely wiped away
Shattered dreams become a beautiful reality
In the weakest moments it is then that I'm strong
Forgotten memories are my redemption stories
Flaws made perfect

In YOU i'm complete...
Thank you Daddy
for the sunrise every morning
the sunset every night
the blessings in between
lovely reminders of
your great love for me

Monday, January 12, 2009

None but Jesus

In the quiet, in the stillness
I know that You are God
In the secret of Your presence
I know there I am restored
When You call I won’t refuse
Each new day again I’ll choose
There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise
In the chaos, in confusion
I know You’re Sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do Your will
When You call I won’t delay
This my song through all my days
All my delight is in You Lord
All of my hope,
all of my strength
All my delight is in You Lord Forevermore
_Thank you Jesus for giving Hillsong the words to explain my heart right now! :D

Friday, January 9, 2009

Before I go to heaven

There are so many things that I want to do before I go to heaven...
dreams that i'm waiting to come true.
What are some of yours?

Wednesday, January 7, 2009


What breaks your heart?
Who/what are you investing in?

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Isaiah 43

But now thus says the LORD,
he who created you, O Jacob,
he who formed you, O Israel:
"Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by name, you are mine.
When you pass through the waters, I
will be with you;
and through the rivers, they shall not
overwhelm you;
when you walk through fire you shall
not be burned,
and the flame shall not consume you.
For I am the LORD your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.
I give Egypt as your ransom,
Cush and Seba in exchange for your life.
Fear not, for I am with you;
I will bring your offspring from the east,
and from the west I will gather you.
I will say to the north, Give up,
and to the south, Do not withhold;
bring my sons from afar
and my daughters from the end of the earth,
wveryone who is called by my name,
whom I created fro my glory,
whom I formed and made."

A simple text was sent to me last night...
We are HISso why are we so ashamed of calling him ours?
You know in those tough moments and its awkward... everyone has them...
Is it because you are ashamed or afraid?
Life outside the HA is very different, you are surrounded by people who don't love the Lord in the same way, many don't know him, or hate him or serve another master.
In order to love you have to KNOW God and admit that you are his....
Matthew 10:32-33
So everyone who acknowledges me before men, I also will acknowledge before my Father who is in heaven, but whoever denies me before men, I also will deny before my Father who is in heaven.

He gave us the right to be call sons and daughters... what an honor
John 1:12-13
But to all who did receive him, who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God who were born, not of blood nor of the will of the flesh nor of the will of man, but of God.

Meditate on HIS holiness....

I love you all!!

Monday, January 5, 2009


So yesterday I went to a church with a couple friends of mine, who I haven't seen in over a year and a half. I was excited but also had high hopes of finding a church family. I walked into the 11 o'clock service, to find myself surrounded and packed in to a very full service. Worship began and I felt such a peace... one that I haven't felt since leaving the HA. I looked around at a couple thousand people singing and praising God with all that they had. Young and old alike. We sang songs that are oh so familiar to me... because I sang them all the time with friends. Then the best part of all....
A simple reminder off all that Christ did for me and that he has proposed to me... That i am a bride... a part of the bride of Christ. That even when I turn to other lovers, knowingly or unknowingly, he still comes back for me and makes me pure... I am forgiven.
Since being home, quiet times are harder to find time for... more like I've been allowing my self to get distracted. Quiet times were happening just not like I want them too.
Christ drew me back to the secret place in the middle of the crowd. He blessed me with a family that I don't know yet, but will get to know over the next few months and I know that there is something here for me that I am supposed to learn. What an opportunity!
a simple reminder of love
something that can't be explained
Someone who cares so much for you that even when you turn even for a brief moment, reaches down and draws you back in the way that is most effective to you...
for me...
sweet surrender

Friday, January 2, 2009

I have great plans for you!
The Lord keeps telling me this over and over again. Then this morning something new. I have something for you Alyssa, something so much more than you could ever imagine or dream of. Know that dreams do come true, just continue to seek after me.
I found out that something will happen this year that I've wanted to happen for so long. I don't know what that is, but i'll find out and let you know.
Remember that the Lord has great plans for you! He tells us in Jeremiah of these plans and the Lord keeps all of his promises, I haven't found a single time when the Lord hasn't fullfilled a promise yet.
Plans, dreams, promises, reality... all go together... HOW AMAZING!
Dreams do come true.
As Daddy's girl I long for so many dreams to come true in my life... many already have and many more will. How awesome my Daddy is!!
Dreams come true!!
One day I will walk on clouds and slide down the rainbow and be lost in the stars! :D

The Beattitudes

So I was reading Matthew 5:1-12 and just really thinking about the attitude and the reward and what they really are. I am amazed by the simplicity and the great reward. That of which we don't deserve, but with God's grace and mercy it is what we will recieve.
Matthew 5
The Beatitudes 1Now when he saw the crowds, he went up on a mountainside and sat down. His disciples came to him, 2and he began to teach them saying: 3"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. 4Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted. 5Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth. 6Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled. 7Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy. 8Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God. 9Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called sons of God. 10Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
11"Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. 12Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.

The Lord is so good!

Thursday, January 1, 2009


I never really realized how much I enjoy letters till today...
I was missing my family and a few others, more than usual today, I found a box of letters from them today and decided to read them, all the sudden it was like I was there with them. What a blessing... I think I am going to start writing more letters.
Thank you all so much for the encouraging notes and letters... what a blessing! :D

Life is foriegn in the norm

Well, I graduated from Teen Mania's Honor Academy on December 13th and moved home for a few weeks. This weekend I am moving to my Ninny's house in Canyon. I am so excited to start college again and get a routine going. Life outside the HA has been so foriegn. I was used to being surrounded by people who are constantly challenging each other to go deeper and to be refined by the Lord in every area of thier life. I was surrounded by friends who knew your mood just by looking at you for a split second or hearing you say hey. The brief amount of time that I spent there has totally transformed my life. I attended the HA as a January intern which has its ups and downs and is pretty much two internships in one. Toward the end of your year you say bye to the people that you love so dearly and say hello to complete strangers and you find yourself completely vulnerable to complete strangers. My life has changed immensely since January 4, 2008 till now. I went to the HA in search of something more and found so much more!!!
I went before the Lord totally broken and completely disconnected. I had a hard heart with a soft cushion. I knew how to wear a mask that made it seem like all was well. I wore it so well I began to believe it for myself. Life was fine... I was content with complacency and apathy. I needed a Daddy and a new heart.
Well I was put into a core whose name was Restoration and our core verse was Ezekial 36:26. Oh man the things that the Lord showed me through that verse are too many to count or explain right now. I found myself completely stripped and alone in the middle of my year. My friends were all gone on vacation or mission trips. Oh how the Lord used isolation.
Will you seek me when you have no one else?
Will you come after me when you are surrounded by your friends?
Will you pursue me when you haven't heard me in 3 months?
Are you desperate for me?
How desperate are you?
Will you listen to me in the wilderness?
Will you let me take your broken heart and give you a new heart?
Will you allow me to mold you into the Proverbs 31 woman that you so long to be?
Will you take what i give you and obey me?
You want my heart? Will you be faithful in the small things?
What will you do when no one else is looking?
Will you step out?
These were just a few of the questions that the Lord asked me in this time. I faced each one with much consideration and chose to chase after a man who had captured my heart, after a man whos face I had never seen. I chose to seek satisfaction in a lover who never fails. I found myself in the arms of a Daddy who would never leave me nor foresake me.
I was blessed with so many friends who had become closer than family in just a few brief months.
I found love and I have chosen to never let go of it! To have joy in all situations. To walk out in faith, even when I don't know why I am doing something. I learned to trust the Lord and the people he had placed in my life.
In the midst of chaos, pain, devastation, hardship, celebration, new life, friends and strangers I have found the greatest love of all and I know so little of it. The more I know the more I see that the less I know.
I am now living outside this enviroment, back where majority of people call life is normal and find myself as a sojourner, much like the apostles. Things continually become more and more real. The scriptures are so encouraging and a wonderful way to live life. I am excited for the next adventure at college.
Sure I miss my friends more than I ever thought possible and I've moved to several different cities in my life and said goodbye to many friends. But these friends are friends that I am living life with. We are connected by our love for the Lord. He has bound us together.
Well thats just a little of what has gone through my mind today....
Life is good... filled with challenges... but I am blessed. :D